Five-year gap

Dear friends,

It's been a while since I updated this blog. To be more specific, it's been 5 years. Lots has happened since. I've journeyed away from God, took my fill of the wilderness.. but He never gave up on me, and His plan for me was still in action when I came back, broken and desperate, much like the Lost Son. Just as He's promised, He clothed me in Sonship, covered my sins and brought me back to where I had left, and acted like I had never been away. Lavished me with love, forgiveness, grace, and mercy.

He healed my brokenness, broke my shackles, showed me visions and wonders, and has started to build me up for His glory once more. I am left speechless at the feet of His throne, I willingly kneel in service of My king, and willingly offer up my life once again for Him. Despite my time in the wilderness and chaos of this world, He has measured out the measures of faith that He would give me when I returned, and He gave it to me. Despite being away, and having to struggle to return, upon my return, He has granted me faith that is greater, and evermore unshakable than before. I see His urgency, and I answer His call to service. I know He speaks the truth, and He beckons me to follow. I will follow Him to the ends of the earth and back again. I will answer the Voice of Truth, and live out my life for Him.

As of the last post, my time at the orphanage that year had been interrupted and cut short, consequences of actions both by myself and those around me. Followed by a series of desperate actions, denying all love, faith and hope from my life, as I embraced the world and its values and denied my place with God. I journeyed deep into sin, and did not surface until I was out of options, and then despite struggling to return to Him, I treaded down a murky and confused path up until this summer, when He interceded and pulled me out of desperation and into new life once more.

So now, I turn my focus from my broken past, and look up, with new life, new strength and new love for the broken world around me. Taking my experience and my life to the altar, and offering it up for His glory. I see Him taking it, breaking it, blessing it, and then giving it back out into the world and blessing multitudes with it. Thus is my new determination for my resumed path.

I will continue to write and record His many blessings, visions and works in my life. I blog for my own sake, especially as God has started to connect the dots again, I'm starting to see how my past and my future will connect. So I will write these down for my own reflection later, though I may also use this as a form of witness to His works and glory.

I have learnt much in the past 5 years, even in the past 3 months. I hope to share more with you soon.

Blessings and Merry Christmas!

James