Calling and Direction (part 3)

God has a way of lining up my past, and my mistakes and regrets with His calling for me in the future. He's just redeeming every part of my life as we go along, and it's the beauty of having a loving and omniscient God.

One of the biggest mistakes that I feel that I've done in my past is something that led me to fall away from God altogether, and that was the time that I went on my own power to serve at a Christian home for the differently abled, namely the reason I had started this blog in the first place. Funny how things come around, and how He works. I can just laugh over all the salvage that He has done in my life. All those times where I went on a limb and did something I would regret for as long as I live. So in my memory of hurt, I had come on my own terms, served on my own strength, dabbled in work politics and work romance which led to my demise and early dismissal. Then it led to cohabitation and my leaving my faith altogether. If there was ever a place to use the words "crash and burn", this was it.

Well, I've come to healing over this whole episode this week, as I was led back to visit under unexpected circumstances. And now that I have prayed for healing, cutting ties, and had grown over these last few years, I can see what a blessing this place is to me. It modelled everything I know and believe in in terms of working in ministry, and everything I would want for what I am called to do in the future. It is my belief that God is calling me to set up a shelter/school somewhere and serve in providing for, loving, protecting and teaching children in bad places. And in view of this task, I had always wondered where I would go to learn all the logistics of doing so, since my training is mostly in teaching.

And so the solution is simple. I would come back to this home for a second chance, and I would serve and learn there whenever I can over the next few years. But this time, on God's strength, at God's time, in God's way. This will be a blessing, I just know it!

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Praise the LORD, all you nations; extol him, all you peoples. For great is his love toward us, and the faithfulness of the LORD endures forever. Praise the LORD. - Psalm 117